Leah My mom caught me and my gf masturbating together in my room with lesbian porn on my laptop. All she said was that it looked like we were really enjoying ourselves then closed the door.
Beau jacksmith123 This is probably a good idea. It seems like whenever I try talking to him it just gets him worked up again so stuff like notes might work better. It’s not the first time any of us have walked in on each other watching porn but it’s the first time it’s been gay porn and one of the only times I’ve even watched it
hudson77 Beau Beau Hey. My name is Beau. Yesterday my older brother caught me looking at gay porn and he totally freaked out and got mad at me saying I can’t be gay and stop watching that crap. We got in a huge fight. The worst fight we’ve ever had. The worst between any of my brothers actually. It’s not normal for us. We push each other around, make fun of each other, but never to hurt each other like what happened yesterday. He’s still super mad at me today even though I’ve tried to explain to him he just overreacted to nothing but that’s going nowhere and I dont really know what to do. I’ve never seen him this mad about something and it’s not like I’m actually gay either. I’m probably not at least, maybe, I dont know. But it’s like he’s made up in his mind that I’m gay and he’s mad about it and has to put a stop to it. Like it’s his decision to make. This is stupid honestly Have you ever thought the reason he got so mad is maybe because he is gay but refuses to admit it ?
Beau hudson77 That had never even crossed my mind. He’s never done something in the past to make me suspect he could be. If he was gay though he shouldn’t have any reason to want to hide it or do whatever this is he’s doing now. But I guess I’m here asking for help instead of asking my family because I guess I’m unsure of what I am and dont want them to know so I guess I can sort of almost maybe see why he would be like this
Beau jacksmith123 Not really. Going anywhere near the subject was still making him mad so I’ve just been mostly letting the dust settle before trying to have any conversation about this again
Beau Well we went at each other again today when he decided he wanted to be mad at me again about this. I finally got fed up with his crap and told him he needs to just accept he’s mad because he’s gay and stop punishing me for it and I paid for that statement with a very hard punch to the stomach. As exciting as it was getting to experience a real punch like that for the first time with all the pain that comes with it I think I’ll avoid making statements like that in the future
jacksmith123 Beau im so sorry he hit you like that. Id normally say tell ur parents for him hitting you, but i know u wouldnt want to tell them why. How did it start today? you need to try and get him when you are both calm. do you share a room>#could you talk in the family room where it would be less likely to hit u?
Beau jacksmith123 He keeps bringing the subject up reminding me I’m not allowed to watch gay porn as if he the boss of me or something. You probably shouldn’t feel that bad about him hurting me though. Rethinking how it played out I probably chose my words badly and had some of that coming. It just gets frustrating having the same fight over and over and I’m much better at fighting with words than physically apparently. It’s left a wicked cool bruise though so that’s something. We don’t share a room. He’s with my other older brother. I share with my twin and first younger brother. He never brings the subject up when anyone else is around so I doubt talking in the family room or something with witnesses would go anywhere. I know one of us is going to have to be the mature person and stay calm and talk this out and it’s probably me, with hopefully no more punches
jacksmith123 Beau i hope u both can make amends. violence is not the answer. your other siblings may notice that bruise and ask questions. i hope the next time is calm so neither of u are physically hurt
Beau jacksmith123 Generally we all get along and aren’t violent. This has been a unique situation really. I’ll come up with some way to talk with him and keep him calm. It just might take a couple tries and ideas to get there. The bruise has already been noticed. You can’t hide anything when you share a room with two others. My bed is the middle bunk so I came up with some lame excuse about accidentally hurting myself getting down which they seem to have believed
Beau My brother and I had a fairly good talk last night. No yelling or fighting now so good. He’s insisting all of this has had nothing to do with him being gay or anything and I pretty much believe him. He’s never been a big liar in the past. He’s said all of this has been because he doesn’t understand how being gay and everything that involves can even work and he’s scared people won’t understand or accept me being gay which again is getting way ahead of things because I’m not gay probably. I dont know. I’m still trying to figure out what’s going on with me. Maybe I am but I’m nowhere near having everyone in my life know about it if so. I dont know. I think things will be good between us now at least
