I’m 17 and I moved to the US 2 years ago. I was dating this girl while I moved here and we dated for the 2 years. We broke up like 2 months ago maybe. (I personally think it was both of our fault). I know i might sound like a perfect delusional person when I write this but trust me I am well aware of what I am doing. Basically I think i fucked things up alot(mostly because timezone difference and i didnt ‘care’ for her) I think im a really caring person and I just messed up in how I convey my feelings. Anyways back to the point, these 2 months were okay for me. I was on a good streak and I was doing okay…still in the flat line but i was okay. A few days back I got sent a picture by one of my fast friends(we really just talked in school and lost contact after that) with her profile photo with someone else(who according to her was just a friend at the time). Even when I proceeded to tell that friend of mine that its none of my buisness she still told me that my ex was dating that guy. I was hurt. I am not hurt at the fact that she’s dating that guy. I just was hurt at the fact that it did not take much for her to move on. I here, am sitting, isolating myself from people because that relationship genuinely ruined my perspective on how people think and how to talk to people. I am sorry for this rant but this is the best place to post this thing(according to me). I go to the gym almost everyday and I have seen significant improvement in my lifestyle overall. I have built a bit of muscle and also my face has cleared up a bit from the acne I had. But I really dont know what to do with my social issues. For context, from the past few days a girl that i know from last year comes up to me and tries to talk to me everytime. It’s always her by the way, ive never approached her. She will sit with me in classes and stuff and whatever but I just dont know what to do. once we’re sitting i just dont know what to say so i stay silent. Again the reason for providing my previous relationship was just so you guys could get some context. I am genuinely happy for my ex because she is doing good now and im glad she finally found someone who she thinks genuinely cares for her. I just dont know what to do with my life. Coming from a country which is very different from the US i have very few friends. I dont aspire to be that typical popular guy, but sometimes the lack of people to talk to just makes me feel lonely. Anyways enough of the rant. I just want to know how to fix this. I am sorry for this long paragraph but this is practically the only place where I can vent out my feelings.
- Aug 31 2024
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